I'm BACK!

Hey diary..:)
Its been so long i didnt updates u since i came back from my vacation..

I dont know why..i just still NOT in the mood to blog. Im still in the mood of HOLIDAY!
New year is just around the corner..i dont even have any plans about it! Urgh..what happen to me?????
Oh yeah...i just remember my hubby said just now that we all are going to having our New Year dinner at KFC restaurant somewhere in town. Its been renovated and the place looked damned nice! I cant wait to bring my kids there!

Talking about VACATION...I really have a BLAST vacation! I tell u..! I'll upload some pics later. We went to Kundasang and stay there for 1 night. We're staying at ZEN GARDEN RESORT. The hotel was so nice & clean but they have cockroach in their room but no worries the cockroach so 'jinak' and it didnt kacau us pun..haha:)) Its damn cold there sebab musim hujan kan..and so many kabus all over the place. Im so happy coz dapat snap pic Mt.Kinabalu. Tidak semua org dapat tgk clear sebab waktu pagi saja clear and kalau suda petang tu banyak kabus so tidak nampak la. So me nie kira bertuah la bah...*wink* We check out from the hotel around 8am and go to our next destination,poring hot spring at Ranau...kira-kira 1/2 jam dari kundasang. My kids really enjoy swimming there! After that, we left poring aroung 2pm and having lunch at chicken rice shop at Ranau. Then we went to Kinabalu Pine Resort to give a chances to the driver to take a break. Sikit lagi we all check in di sana for one night but my hubby refused b'coz of some personal reasons... our last destination is Kinabalu Park..Its a very nice place! I dont know how to describe it..only people yg pernah pergi sana dapat rasakannya. Rasanya 2 hari tidak cukup to discover KUNDASANG! I need MORE time and MORE $$$$$$$..
Masa on the way balik kk...bikin takut owh coz kabus sangat2 tebal! And semua kereta terpaksa guna emergency light coz langsung tidak nampak jalan...its so dangerous coz it rainy day..my hubby terpaksa drive so slowly as he can.
Eventhough one of my friends tidak dapat joining us for the vacation but we still have a BLAST.

Before i forgot...Alia called me just now. She said dia sudah scan the baby..and its a BOY! Im glad to hear that! She said myron was so happy gilak..haha..(sebab dia teringin sgt anak lelaki..lagipun its a 1st cucu lelaki in his family).

Oh gosh..im speechless..dont know what to say anymore..
okay la..i'll upload some pics about my vacation...

Picture says a thousand words! Take ur time n thank you for that..:)) see u on my next post! dadadada..

picture taken at zen garden resort..Nice view of mt.kinabalu..:)

afique posing overlooking Mt.Kinabalu early in the morning..:)

View of Mt.Kinabalu early in the morning..taken by me!

above: poring hot springOrchid garden, Kinabalu pine resort..

Children Are A Gift From GOD...

God sent me three packages

That needed special care
"Take care of these tiny gifts
For they are very rare."

"Watch over them with all your love
And let them feel your touch
Take care of their every need
For you are needed very much."

"These gifts will grow up very fast
As you soon will see
Love them with all your heart
And let them be what they will be."

"When these gifts have fully grown
Look at Heaven up above
Know they exist because of God
And all his precious love."

They are my soul..A gift from ALLAH..i will LOVE them with all of my heart
Thank You YA ALLAH....:)

Just being me!

The life I seek must be fast
The speed of life makes me laugh!
Death's just around the corner for
a Queer like me!
Well so they say all of them Freaks.
Homophobia I really do detest
What I am is what I do best!
Like if you want, Answer! This ain't no test
If you like me, "Great," then we're friends
If you hate me don't make me get upset!
I'm just a Dike whom nobody Straight likes
Well forget you all, cause we love each other
my Baby and I!
You don't have to shake my hand,
I'm not asking you to stare.
If you don't like what you see,
then get the Hell out of here!
I am what I am, So please understand
Even if you don't "Who really gives a damn?"

Poem #1

HOPE
When all about you is black with gloom,
And all you feel is pending doom.
When your bones are racked with grim despair -
When every breath is a gasp for air.
Keep on going, though you need to grope,
For around the bend is a ray of hope.

A ray of hope is perhaps all that's left,
As your will to live has been bereft.
You've lost it all, it's just no use!
You can end it all, you need no excuse.
But throw away that piece of rope,
And give yourself a chance of hope.

Just give yourself another day,
Brushing aside what your thoughts may say.
This is your life and you can make a new start,
By ignoring the brain - just follow the heart.
Taking baby steps in order to cope,
And minute by minute you'll build on your hope.

Build on your hope,. one day at a time,
Though the road be steep and hard to climb.
The hurts of the past - they should be dead.
The fears of the future are all in your head.
Just live in the present and refuse to mope
Your life will sparkle for you're living in hope....

P/s: This is my favourites poems...

Inspirational Quotes..

" Energy and persistence conquer all things. "
~ Benjamin Franklin

"If I can stop one heart from breaking, I shall not live in vain. "
~ Emily Dickinson

"Do not follow where the path may lead.
Go instead where there is no path and leave a trail. "
~ Ralph Waldo Emerson

"Don't judge each day by the harvest you reap,
but by the seeds you plant."
~Robert Louis Stevenson

"If you're going through hell, keep going. "
~ Sir Winston Churchill

"Your talent is God's gift to you.
What you do with it is your gift back to God. "
~ Leo Buscaglia

"In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life:
It goes on. "
~ Robert Frost

"No one can make you feel inferior without your consent."
~ Eleanor Roosevelt

"It is never too late to be what you might have been."
~ George Eliot

"The future depends on what we do in the present."
~ Mahatma Gandhi

"To be seventy years young is sometimes far more cheerful
and hopeful than to be forty years old."
~ Oliver Wendell Holmes

"What we think or what we believe is, in the end, of little consequence.
The only thing of consequence is what we do."
~ John Ruskin

Random!

Actually nothing is interesting today..as usual i just staying at home..still being JOBLESS..still hoping that today will be better than yesterday of course!
My husband MC today because he is not feeling well..he got headache. So we went to the clinic just now. And after that we went to Manikar Beach Resort to send my resume to the HR. I am applying fo the post of Sales Co-ordinator. I dont know whether i can get this job or not..i was just trying. Please pray for me...:)

Actually i was so happy today because on this friday we will going for a vacation!! teeeheeee...im loving it! Tidak la jauh sangat, we just going to kk only..hehe..:)

Okay..back to the top..guys, please help me. I really need a JOB right now. If theres any vacancy that u guys tahu, dont forget to mention me okay.. i really appreciated it!

Well..this Thursday we will celebrating Hari Raya Qurban a.k.a Aidiladha. So i wanna wish SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILADHA to all the Muslim's blogger and not to forget MERRY X'MAS to all non-muslim blogger out there!

New year is just around the corner...i dont have any plan for that night! Maybe we just celebrating it as usual, bring our kids to makan2, ronda2 around the town and of course i wanna see the Fireworks..haha!!! So guys, do u have any planning for New year Eve, mana tau me boleh join..hehe=)

Okay..thats all for now..
Ciao!

My very worst day!

Today is my bad day! Last month i've attended an interview with a Travel Agent company. After 2 weeks, my adopt sister sms me and tell me that my application is unsuccessful!! I really really dissapointed sampai i crying out loud just now!!! Stupid me! I'm not suppose to berharap too much! Urgh..i felt really sucks!
Ya Allah..Please hear me..i really need a job right now. I dont understand why they dont want to give me an opportunity to prove myself. Yeah..i admit that i dont have a qualifications but please..i can do any work. As u can see i am really competent in using computer. I have basic knowledge in Microsoft office tools and so on. I have to work so that i can gain an experienced..takkan la pengalaman akan datang sendiri tanpa bekerja kan???
Now i will looking forward to find another job. But i really upset because sometimes an employer dont want to hired me just because im not citizen. WTF???? I really want to try..give me a chance to try..

I realized that its not easy for me to get a job. Without qualifications and work experienced and ditambah lg with my citizenship...its really really hard! I just need people to trust my ability..thats all..!

Someone once told me: 'Luck is when opportunity meets preparation'. And that's what I really feel with my music. I've worked really, really hard on it. It was like, 'this is really what I want to do.. what do I have to do to make it work?

My new look!

Akhirnya berjaya juga tukar template. Nampak macam sama like before but now i've got 3 column and i can put a lots of widget on it. Blogging is my current addiction...=) Happy holiday to myspace, friendster, tagged and facebook...ahaks...=))

I miss my mother..

Im truly miss her!

Stressed!!

I cant stand this anymore..being a jobless make felt fucking stressed! Yeah..i know its hard for me to get a job because i dont have any qualification that every employer needs! I admit that.....:(
But please give me a chance to prove myself. Sometimes, i asked myself "kenapalah aku di lahirkan untuk jadi begini" i dont like to..but i have to accept the fact that i am NOT perfect as everyone around me. Everybody has their own weakness...but for me....my life was so hard and complicated! very complicated!! Thanx to my family and friends who always being there for me...and especially my husband and my kids who always loves me and cares for me!
i love all of u! Muahhhh!!!

P/s: i miss my mother so much!

My sunday..

Hi..first of all i wanna wish u guys HAPPY WEEKEND!! Hope u guys enjoy this weekend as well with your beloved family and friends.
I've got nothing to do on this weekend..i just staying at home with my kids and my husband got another job to be done today at his friend's house. Urghhhh...what a BORED weekend i've got here!
But no worries..another 5 days we will going for a vacation...yiiippppppiiiiieeeee!!! I cant wait to meet my friends and of course my family at kk...i miss them like hell already!

ok la..i gotta go..thats all for now.
bye!
Happy weekend!

Dear diary...

There's so many things i'd like to say over here..but suddently i'm being speechless..i really hate this situation! Actually i already set up a few things that i wanna write here...and now all gone! S***

Okay..lets started with my saturday. Today i woke up a bit late...around 10am i guess..:)) Dont misunderstood okay..actually i woke up early in the morning already but i fall asleep back after my hubby go to work..hehe..i'm a very lucky wife in this world...lol..=))
Then my bro in law ask me to connect my streamyx to his laptop...at first it didnt work because i didnt know how to create a new connection to another pc...and lastly...i did it!!! Sometimes i did somethng without my realizing..like before..i don't even remember how i could make the connection to his laptop...if u guys ask me to do it again..for sure i couldn't make it! Pernah sekali when i was 10..i fixed my radio yg sudah rosak. Haha..i'm really weird sometimes. I like to do things 'cincai' but perfect!!

Just now i go to jalan-jalan with my sister and of course i bring along my 2 boys. We went to Financial park which is the one and only shopping mall yg ada di Labuan. My sister bought a religious book at a bookstore. Then after that we went to having a tea tarik at Choice Restaurant (one of my fav rest. after Victoria Blessarie GD). Afique is not feeling well today..these few days he got muntah just after he eat something and starting last night he got cough. But tonight his getting better after i give him some cough syrup and urut his stomach as well..

Oh yeah, last night i went to my husband's company annual dinner, Labuan Shipyard & Engineering Annual dinner 07. He's been working there since August 07. Well, all i can say is i really enjoy the night as well but NOT the food..full stop! I dont want to complaint more about the dinner because its the very first annual dinner organized by the company and i understand if there is some kekurangan here n there...and i hope it can improve more in 2008..hopefully!

Actually today i got a ghatering with a group of friends. But it cancelled..i don't really know why it been cancelled because one of my friend, mary who is the mastermind didn't contact us and tell us more about the ghatering!! I really dissapointed!! I really wanna meet my old friends as well...we have to talk about a lotssss of things. Chit chat about our new life and gossip-ing of course. U see guys, people says Labuan is a small island...but even we live at the same place we didn't see each other...!

At last but not least...i wanna show u guys photo of my babies....taraaaaaa (drum beat)

This is Afique Daniel. Was born on 10 march 05.
Current addiction : ULTRAMAN TIGA
He loves his brother aniq n he's my very good boy..

This is my gendut, Anique Nawfal..
Was born on 30 August 06 (cool date huh??)
Current addiction: Vroooom...vroooommm.
He's my naughty boy...haha:))

For my beloved husband..

You're my man, my mighty king,
And I'm the jewel in your crown,
You're the sun so hot and bright,
I'm your light-rays shining down,

You're the sky so vast and blue,
And I'm the white clouds in your chest,
I'm a river clean and pure,
Who in your ocean finds her rest,

You're the mountain huge and high,
I'm the valley green and wide,
You're the body firm and strong,
And I'm a rib bone on your side,

You're an eagle flying high,
I'm your feathers light and brown,
You're my man, my king of kings,
And I'm the jewel in your crown

P/s: I love you so much no matter what! Thanx for always being there for me..
A big hug n a lots of kisses for u...:)

My dream home..

I still cant sleep yet..its almost 1am already.. My kids n hubby sudah tidur and its easy for to start blogging kan...haha:)

Well..i felt so excited about our new home...ndak lama lg i've got my own 'castle'. Hmmmm..actually i dont really know where it will be located because my DIL yg bg my hubby the land..so lucky kan?? yg me tau my house nanti just near to my FIL house...so mesti la d area sini juga.
I just want a small,simple,nice n elegant home....memandangkan my DIL is a draughtsmen, so its easy for us to share an opinions n ideas about the design. Maybe on February 08 barulah start bikin that house....i'm so happy!!!

Tapi dalam masa yg sama me risau juga cause mau sediakan a lots of furniture n barang dapur for our new home nnt...yalah...semuanya MESTI beli yg baru! Gosh...!!! Because selama ni we stayed at my FIL house, so we dont have any furniture yg mau di 'angkut' pegi rumah baru nnt...*sigh*

Okay..now i'll show u some of pics about my 'new home'.....taraaaaaaaaaaa

okay...my living room will kinda look like this...simple kan?? i love this!!

or maybe like this......this is very elegant...yet simple! what do u think? which one is better???this is contemporary style...luv it!

Kitchen:

then the bathroom will be something like this....

the bathroom style in this pic sama like my inlaws punya bathroom...but diorang punya lagi cantik dari ini...:)

And this is the bedroom photo...i've got a lot of pics to show u guys..so pilih ya which one is better...:))

first choice..my hubby also like it...contemporary style:)

second choice..flair of dramatic..very elegant but more to girly..right??

third choice....bali style...i really love this one!!! but it must be too expensives!! forget it sabrina...lol:)

Actually i really into modern or contemporary style. Modern style is very simple n fit. Plus it very suitable for our age...young n modern..LOL..:))
My house nnt will have 1 living rooms, 3 bedrooms, 1 dining room, kitchen (of course la ada kan), and two bathrooms which is one in our bedroom.

I really cant wait to have our own house...lol...
And i hope the next Eid, i will celebrating it at our new crib..haha..and for sure i will invite all of you...insyaalllah..:)

So, thats all for now..i gotta go!
bye!

This life.....

Three passions have governed my life:
The longings for love, the search for knowledge,
And unbearable pity for the suffering of [humankind].

Love brings ecstasy and relieves loneliness.
In the union of love I have seen
In a mystic miniature the prefiguring vision
Of the heavens that saints and poets have imagined.

With equal passion I have sought knowledge.
I have wished to understand the hearts of [people].
I have wished to know why the stars shine.

Love and knowledge led upwards to the heavens,
But always pity brought me back to earth;
Cries of pain reverberated in my heart
Of children in famine, of victims tortured
And of old people left helpless.
I long to alleviate the evil, but I cannot,
And I too suffer.

This has been my life; I found it worth living.

November...a worst month of 2007 (for me)

Hi..
Just wanna share with u all..there's many things happen on November to me n my inlaw family...

First: I still cant get a JOB! I hate this situation...i really need a JOB!
Well u know..next year we will build our own house.....so i need to work to help my hubby.
Actually i dont like to..tapi kan..mau cover duit bayar loans n of course la kan new home should buy new furniture, new barang dapur, all new la bah...kalau boleh semua pun mau baru..hehe..
So..i need to work so that i can earn some money to help my hubby...
FYI, now i lived at my inlaw's house. And next year start buat sudah our new home..x la juga jauh from my inlaw home..sebelah jak..:)

U guys tau la kan..kalau sudah ada rumah sendiri....mesti banyak belanja kan??? am i right??
So guys..kalau ada vacancy do let me know ok! And kak jiejah..i need ur help.

Second: My granpa in law just passed away on 24november last month..u know what?? on that night me n my hubby celebrated his 23rd birthday at Sheraton hotel (now formally known as GRAND DORSETT). Actually..petang tu kami sudah visited his grandpa and my dad in law said kesihatan my GIL bertambah teruk and hospital already suruh balik cause maybe tiada harapan lg..:( Then, my hubby decided to cancel our planning for that night but me berkeras juga mau pegi dinner d Sheraton..STUPID me kan?

We really enjoy our night...after we picked up our kids at my sister house. Then my DIL called said that my GIL passed away..i'm so shocked! I really menyesal about the dinner! I suppose to be at hospital with my family inlaw that time...:( I felt so stupid!

Before this my GIL mmg sakit paralyzed or angin ahmar. Selama 6 tahun my GIL menderita paralyzed.

Semoga Roh Nya Di Cucuri Rahmat and Di Tempatkan Bersama Orang-orang Yg Beriman....................Amin....

And sekarang my Grandma in law lagi sakit..gosh..i can hardly believed this!! My GIL already kena tahan di hospital about a week just after 9 days her late husband passed away...and sudah discharge dr hospital on monday. Then last night, she sick again..high fever if im not mistaken and kena tahan lagi di hospital..:(( i really want to visit her tonight but my hubby got OT and maybe i couldn't make it....how bad.....:((

I just can pray for her supaya dia KUAT and will get well soon..Insyaallah....

yippie..finally!

Yeap..i'm so happy sebab finally i sudah dapat hotel d kundasang. Semua hotel n resort sudah me called but unfortunately semuanya FULLY BOOKED! S***..!!
And last nite a friend of mine ask me to call this hotel, Kinabalu Heritage Resort (formally known as PERKASA HOTEL b4). Thank GOD coz masih ada bilik kosong for me n my friends..:) Then i booked 2 suite rooms which is cost RM160 per night without b/fast n dinner..
Gumbiranya hati ku...hahahaha...hari tu sikit lagi cancell sebab tiada tempat tinggal. Mau pigi pulang balik pun tidak siok kan??? so my hubby decided to just cancelled it at first then last night bila me bgtau ada bilik kosong he said "ok..we'll go kundasang"...yippieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!

Listen

Beyonce - Listen lyrics

I love this song so very much..to all my reader....this song goes to all of u...
muaxxx!!!

job..job..please...;)

I dont know what should i do...arghhhh...boring nya jadi penganggur nie..i feel so s****s..haha;p

Help me..

uhhh...i still 'blur' about blogging world...;( dunno how to make this thing work...arghhh..help me guys...!!!

Hoorayyy...kundasang..here i come!

Today i already booked 3 deluxe rooms at kinabalu Rose Cabin at kundasang... This is gonna be great! I cant wait to get there..*wink2*
Plus...my 2 besties or so called 'sister' also joining us there....;p
Hmmm...i dont remember when was the last time i go there..if i'm not mistaken, i still a little girl at that time..haha. Can u imagine how excited i am????? mengalahkan budak-budak..;))

Oh yeah...if u wanna know more about me, just visit me at friendster or myspace...aites??

My very first day as a 'blogger'...;p

Gosh....finally.....i've got my own blog...haha;p FYI,i dont really like to blogging but i do loves to read other people blogs...its inspired me a lots..;p
so guys...thanx for dropping by;)
i will update my blog as soon as possible...tq